I’m done with testosterone supplementation. Just can’t deal with it. I began it about 3 months ago to try to address long-standing depression and lethargy, and to that end it’s been rather successful.
Too successful, however. The needle is now tipping over into mixed-state manic territory, including some emotionally self-destructive sexual impulses and behaviors.
All this on top of how testosterone just makes me feel wrong. It robs me of patience, tenderness, and a rather indescribable sense of “love” that stays in my chest, despite the anxiety and anger and fear and insomnia and self-doubt and depression.